Working again................

I'm not sure what happened or where things went wrong but, they have. I have just started working for 2 companies. One is an internet book company and the other is the doctors office I have worked for my entire working life (13 years before I had Kenny). I am loving it and feel like I am on top of the world..........that's where the issue lies.

I feel like a contributing part of the family again. I feel like I am accomplishing so much now that I am earning a paycheck again. I'm not sure where things have gone wrong in this world but, I think it is crummy that I didn't feel like I was contributing enough by staying home and taking care of our youngest child. Family is, under God, the most important thing there is and here I am feeling like a failure because I am not getting a paycheck to do so.

I think it sucks that our worth is measured by our paychecks as opposed to OUR TRUE VALUE! I love my kids and husband and try and be a good person but, that isn't enough!

There, now ya know.

Lady in the Window.......................

OK.........so the BFF has challenged everyone to tell a ghost story. Mine isn't all that scary but, it is weird.

When I was about 9 or 10 we lived in a house in Thornton. I didn't like that house cause it always gave me a "not so good" feeling. I have always had crazy feelings about certain places. Some places I can't go because the feelings are so strong they make your tummy turn and the hair on your arms stand-up...........so anyways, we lived in this house and it was creepy.

One day I was riding my bike outside up and down the street. There was no one home except me cause it was right after school. (Back in those days it was much safer for kids to be home by themselves or at least the dangers weren't publicly talked about so much.) As I was riding back up our hill I looked over at my bedroom window and saw an old lady standing in my window peeking out from behind the curtain watching me ride my bike. I had never seen her before and this was the only time that I would ever see her. I told my mom and she said she must have just been watching over me to make sure I didn't get hurt riding my bike in the street.

I don't tell many people that story cause they usually don't believe me but, since BFF said we had to share stories I figured it was time to bring out of the closet. Like I said, it's not that scary but, it was enough that I haven't forgotten it in 22 years.

She finally says something else...........

It's a miracle, she finally says something other than DADDY! We are watching the Olympics and the cutest commercial ever just came on. It's the one with the Clydesdale and the Dalmatian training for the Olympics. Well, my little Kenny just said "horse". Of all things she could say, she says horse. Not mommy, horse. Oh well, it's pretty cool that she is expanding her vocabulary.

She now also says...........eyes, ears, and mouth while she points to them. She is getting pretty good at the talking thing, she is now trying to copy everything everyone says.

PS..........................one final thought. I have officially stopped being jealous of my BFF's little boy Spanky. He is now running and hiding and taking off his diaper when he is poopy. He has decided that he is going to potty train with or with out his mommy. No longer am I jealous of Spanky being ahead of Kenny!!!! LOL...................much love to my BFF though, she is strong and has three other boys so this won't break her. Hats off Chicken.

Look at the horses son.................

Once upon a time, long long ago...........there was a single girl who had a baby boy. This baby boy was everything in the world to this girl and she would do anything for his happiness. There were many days that his smile was all that she had.

One day the girl and her son were coming home from McDonalds where she just picked up a happy meal for her young prince charming. They were driving on a side street, where oddly enough there were no others cars around. As the young girl, only 20 years in age, drove her little man, 4 years in age, home she saw a horse drawn carriage coming towards them. Since there was no other cars anywhere to be seen, the mommy slowed the car way down and let the little boy crawl over her lap to see the horses. The little boy loved animals and she knew that seeing the horses would only make him smile ear to ear which would add much joy to her day. As the carriage came closer the mommy could see 4 very beautifully dressed people. There was a man, a woman, and two little girls. The man was dressed in a black tux, the woman in a pretty white dress, and the two little ladies were dressed in white flowers girls dresses. The little boy looked out the window and pointed at the horses as they walked by. As the mom looked on with her little prince charming on her lap, her smile turned to a look of amazement. As the carriage was going by, the mom realized that the man and woman had just been married and although most people would be happy for them the mom couldn't help but feel sick inside.

What I didn't mention at the beginning of the story is that, this mommy was a single teenage mommy who had brought this little boy into the world without a daddy to be around for him. She was only 15 1/2 when she became pregnant and she knew right away that the baby God blessed her with was going to be special in many ways. The father was to go away into the wild world (where ever that was) and didn't wish to be around as he feared he would do more damage then good if he stayed around for this baby.

Her baby was now 4 and staring out the window as happy as any mommy could ever want her boy to be.............the mommy, on the other hand, just saw the other half of what created this beautiful little boy standing over her lap happy as ever and not knowing anything could ever be wrong. As she starred with eyes wide-open, the man made eye contact and waved hello.

I don't know what made me think of this story today. I guess it was watching my son watch the Olympics. He has been following them very closely, we all have been, and wants to get a gold medal himself one day. All I can think as I see the other mothers crying from joy is, "how the hell do you walk away from that chance to share that kind of joy with your child".

I haven't thought about it much since it happened but, once in a while I do and today I thought I would share it with you.

Baby Talk..........

Have you ever noticed that there is almost always a "friendly" competition/comparison between friends with how advanced their kids are?! Well, my BFF and I have babies that are 5 weeks apart (same number of weeks apart during our pregnancies...cute huh!). I have a little girl named Kenny (nick-name) and she has a little boy named Spanky (also a nick-name). I use nick-names to protect them from embarrassment when they get older. Anyways, we don't see each other too often cause she picked up her kids and moved as far away from me as she could get, or at least as far as her husband would take her. LOL, they moved away to be close to family but, I have to tease her to show her I love her.........so, since we don't see each other too much I read her blogs to make myself feel better. Today she blogged about how Spanky calls her "bob", cause he doesn't say "mom" yet. Well, I laugh that she wants to be called mom and not bob cause Kenny won't call me anything. When I tell her to say "mom" she shakes her head no and calls me "DADDY". I just want her to say something to set me apart from daddy and I can't get that to save my soul. I would be more than happy if she call me "BOB". While Kenny, who is 1 1/2 years old and doesn't talk very much yet, says the normal DADDY, DOGGIE, DOWN, DAT..........(do you see a trend here)?...................... Spanky is already singing his ABC's, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and has a vocabulary of a million words. It really makes a mommy stop and wonder when her little one will start to catch up. My BFF says it's cause she is 5 weeks behind but, I know she is just trying to make me feel better. I would just like her to feel better knowing that at least her baby calls her something.

First Unofficial Haircut.......

My little girl Kenny is 1 1/2 years old and doesn't have too much hair yet. She has really fine hair just like her mommy and big brother who didn't even get enough hair to have a haircut until he was 5.

I took her this last weekend to LolliLocks and thought I would just see how much they wanted to cut her hair........holy cow, $15.99 for her first cut! I thought that was a little much, that's more than the big kids pay for thier haircuts and they have plenty of hair to be cut. (Yes I am that cheap) She doesn't really have all that much hair to cut, so I decided we would just do a bang trim/over the ear cut instead ($5.99). We put her up in the chair and she started to cry before the lady even started. It was too cute.......it was like she knew what was coming! I told the lady what I wanted and she looked at me like I was stupid. She says "you don't really want to do an over the ear trim, do you?"......."yes, I do" I said. She says "ok, if you don't mind her having a mullet, I will cut it that way!"...........oh, yeah.................I didn't even think about the mullet thing. I still live in the 80's but she doesn't have to.

"Never mind, go ahead and do the bang trim and we'll call it good.......he-he!

The lady cut off about enough to land on her nose and make her more mad cause she couldn't get it off. She cried the entire time..............it was really funny and sad at the same time. Since there wasn't much to cut, I have decided it was her First Unofficial Haircut, there wasn't anything to collect and save for her scrapbook.............I think it all blew away when she was crying.

When her bang trim was done, she got down and found her way to the fun animal chairs and smiled from ear to ear. I couldn't help but put her up on the purple and yellow hippo to make her happy for a minute before we had to go. She loved it, she sat on that thing for about 5 minutes and then cried when I had to take her down.

Other Peoples Kids...............

I used to LOVE kids.....all kids...my kids, my friends' kids and every ones kids. NOT anymore. I have decided that people are seriously slacking on their parenting duties. I took the baby to the park the other day to play in the water. It's a really cool park with all these tubes that spray water everywhere, she loves it. She was doing great running everywhere and in 'n' out of the water and was having a great time. Unfortunately, there are a bunch of older kids there having a great time too, running all over the place crazy. All was good until a boy about 13 came walking up behind Kenny, he was kicking his legs and splashing all over the place. This isn't what bothered me, what got me was he came right up behind Kenny, looked right at her and kept on kicking and splashing. He almost kicked her in the butt, which would have knocked her over and then I would have had to kick his butt and knock him down - over and over again. I couldn't believe that he didn't even care he was going to kick her. I grabbed her out of the way and told him to look where he was going for heaven sakes and to look out for the babies that were running all over the place. He looked at me like I was crazy.

So, now I have decided that parents out there just need to spend more time being parents and take care of their kids. Kids these days just don't have the respect or awareness for things around them......I can't stand other peoples kids now!!!! (don't worry, I do still love my kids - all 3 - and my bff's kids - all 4 boys - and anyone else who has well behaved kids)